As soon as i found out i was pregnant i got super excited to welcome this bundle of joy in my plain boring life. To be honest, my life was really quiet and boring before my 3rd baby, i almost forgot how to laugh. Apparently my life was pitch perfect ideal according to others. Married with 2 kids, 9 to 5 office job and living in a dream house that i always wanted. Of course its not paid off. I am not being ungrateful but i was not feeling that joy. My life was only surrounded by my work, coming home, getting chores done quickly and rushing to the bed to get up on time next morning to reach at work. Every single day driving back to home, i would ask myself why am not happy, what am i missing in my life. I have a job, i have a house, i have kids then what was it. I would cry every time coming home asking god to "give me joy for once, i really want to feel how happiness is like". I just wanted to feel it before i am gone. I did not feel happy at all in my life and i was tired pretending it. I was going by the saying " fake it till you make it" but it was not happening in my case.
I was just going on and on every single day like this until this one day when i started wondering about my missing periods for more than 3 weeks. It did not cross my mind that i could ever be pregnant unless my doctor would help me. Because with the condition like PCOS, i just thought this could never happen. Well, i was not sure.But when a lot of days passed and i started feeling more hungry than usual. I got little concerned that something must have gone wrong with my PCOS. I was also feeling nauseous in the morning. So, I thought its a good idea to check and find out if i was pregnant. I had a very old pregnancy test sitting in my bathroom cabinet for no obvious reason but it was there. I came home early from work one afternoon and checked. That very moment I FELT the ray of happiness for once after how long i can't remember. To be Continued....
Thank you for reading. I am not a very good writer but i can try to reveal some more about my Crazy drab life with the conditions like Anxiety, Pcos and IBS. And how life is like when you suffer from these conditions and go by your days.
Please let me know if you want me to write more? Comment below if you have built a slight interest in bit of my crazy life. I would appreciate little bit of encouragement in expressing my self with the help of yours. And I will shed some light on my life with Pcos.
Please let me know if you want me to write more? Comment below if you have built a slight interest in bit of my crazy life. I would appreciate little bit of encouragement in expressing my self with the help of yours. And I will shed some light on my life with Pcos.
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